[1]Believe it or not, I've been starving for four days on end.

[2] At first, I ate nothing but four baked cakes or two small buns per day, then I cut them down by half and then by another half, until I didn't even own a copper for buying boiled water. When I was thirsty, I would stand under a tap and let its running water pour down my throat through my wide-open mouth. I felt bloated. There was a pain and chill in my stomach. I cannot tell you enough how miserable I was.

[3] How did it come that I had been reduced to such poverty? It was because the school where I studied had got into trouble. Many students had been arrested and taken to the police station. Some students had moved house and some had gone home. The school canteen was closed because it refused to serve meals on credit. While trying to rescue the arrested fellow students, I meanwhile had to find enough money to pay my living expenses. So I was terribly busy.

[4] Pressed by hunger, I would visit Chunchao Bookstore every day to seek a loan of money. When Kang Nong or Fu Hua was there, I would have no problem in borrowing a couple of silver dollars through them. But I seldom found them in the store and the clerks of course had no say in this matter. Therefore, in nine times out of ten nothing would come of my visit there.

[5] 1 was beside myself with joy the day when I found my book The Diary of a Woman Soldier published at long last. Pasted up at the door of the bookstore was an eye-catching colourful poster advertising the book. I went into the store full of curiosity, and, as an ordinary customer would do, took from the shelf a copy of the book, which had on its bright-red front cover a cartoon by Feng Zikai's daughter portraying a little woman soldier riding on a cow. I didn't buy it for I knew I was entitled as its author to at least ten complimentary copies.

說(shuō)出來(lái)，有誰(shuí)相信呢?我已經(jīng)四天沒(méi)吃飯了。

起初是一天吃四個(gè)燒餅，或者兩個(gè)小面包;后來(lái)由四個(gè)減成兩個(gè)，再由兩個(gè)減成一個(gè)，最后簡(jiǎn)直窮得連買開(kāi)水的一個(gè)銅板也沒(méi)有了?？诳蕰r(shí)就張開(kāi)嘴來(lái)，站在自來(lái)水管的龍頭下，一扭開(kāi)來(lái)，就讓水灌進(jìn)嘴里，喝得肚子脹得飽飽的，又冷又痛，那滋味真有說(shuō)不出的難受。

為什么會(huì)窮到這個(gè)地步呢?那時(shí)學(xué)校里發(fā)生了問(wèn)題，許多同學(xué)被抓進(jìn)捕房去了，許多同學(xué)搬了家，也有些回去了的，廚房不肯賒賬，他再不愿意開(kāi)飯給我們吃了。我那時(shí)一面還進(jìn)行援救被捕同學(xué)的工作，一面又要籌備自己的生活費(fèi)，真是忙得頭昏眼花。

實(shí)在餓得不能忍受了，才每天跑去春潮書(shū)店借錢(qián)。如果遇到康農(nóng)和撫華兩人在，還可借給我三元五元，但他們?cè)诘昀锏娜兆邮呛苌俚模镉?jì)們自然不敢做主，因此去十次總有九次落空的。

那是我最快樂(lè)的一天，《從軍日記》出版了!春潮書(shū)店的大門(mén)口貼著一張用各種不同顏色寫(xiě)的又鮮明又動(dòng)人的廣告，我懷著一顆好奇心走了進(jìn)去，也像顧客一般，從書(shū)架上抽出來(lái)一本封面鮮紅、是豐子皚先生的女公于畫(huà)的小兵騎牛的《從軍日記》來(lái)看。但我沒(méi)有買它，因?yàn)槲抑?，至少可以無(wú)條件地得到十本的。